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Glitches

~ Emma ~ Leave a comment

There is a glitch with my iPhone and my Mom’s iPhone. We are green and no longer blue when we text each other. With everyone else who has an iPhone we are blue, but the two of us…we are now green. 

Lots of explanations for this the sweet guy at Fido said. He and a lovely other guy took a lot of time fussing with all sorts of settings, trying different things to get us back to blue. Two very smart, tech savvy guys and two iPhones, now green instead of blue.

I Googled this before going to Fido and tried endless things yesterday with no luck. It happened at around 2:30pm. I watched it happen. One minute we are blue then the next, boom, green. 

If you have an iPhone then you understand the slight stress here. Just slight. A mystery, what just happened? Why are we green and not blue? Three seconds ago we were blue. My Mom and I texting back and forth our attention now locked in on this “issue” that’s come into our lives. Green and not blue. It’s actually ridiculous thinking that this is a problem. It’s not a problem, just a minor annoyance because things are not like they used to be. 

I secretly think Steve Jobs had this in mind. To screw with everyone. Just continually keep pissing people off even from his grave. Software updates throwing us off every couple months, imposing upon us new things to learn and adapt to, how dare he! Messing with our emotions. No thing or person or device will be in control of my emotions. I will handle this in the way that I’m sure Steve would want me to. And that is, to search high and low, talk to everybody, ask all the bots, Google, to find an answer as to how I can get me and my Mom back to BLUE! 

My first stop was the Fido store where I got my phone. I love the guys there. They are so kind and knowledgeable and helpful, the employees at this specific Fido store on Davie street are just next level. I won’t go anywhere else (except the Apple store if necessary, which in this case it was, I’ll get to that next). And the conclusion that we came to after trying all sorts of things was, that, this is just a system glitch and we would need to wait for the next software update whenever that may be, another mystery, in order for things to reset. Or, he said, to try a factory reset but backup everything first and see if that fixes it. 

“Factory reset” two terms that really scare the crap out of me. I love my phone factory. My factory is very special. If I need to wipe it and my Mom’s I just, I’m just, not prepared for this level of panic today. I can’t afford to lose anything else at this point. Reset my factory? I’d rather have a root canal. Two. Being green is enough stress for today. I’ll happily stay green, just don’t touch my Factory.

So, with that information, I bust down to the beautiful glass encased Apple store that beams with white calming light at the corner of Howe and Georgia street. When you walk towards the store, there are lovely concrete steps outside leading you towards the big glass revolving doors. It’s got this heaven like feel as you approach it. I wonder if Steve had that in mind too when he saw the actual stores infrastructure in his mind. Probably. Maybe he thinks or thought he was God? Or maybe he wasn’t involved in this aspect at all. It doesn’t matter really. Don’t even get me started on the staircase that leads from the Sales floor up to the second floor where the “Fixers” are. It’s like the second your foot touches the first step of this staircase, the ability to overthink gets wiped from your Universe, the ability to think period, becomes a challenge. You just start feeling and imagining, and everything else goes quiet as you take each step. Exactly what the Apple Gods envisioned I think.

And when you’re inside Apple it’s like another planet where people speak a different language and they know how to bring a sense of calm back to your world just with their smiles and attitude of “we can fix this, no problem,”  it’s like you know that, all your life’s problems will be taken care of in here and the second you leave the store, the world and your life will be righted and a lot brighter somehow. 

My phone is like my kid. I don’t have any actual human children so I use devices and animals as my kids and when something is up with one of them, they’re green instead of blue, holy hell I’m going to use every inch and ounce of my healing power, my wisdom, my ruthlessness to nurse my baby back into action. We all have glitches and it’s the kindness of other people and our own willingness to breathe love and compassion into our experience of these glitches, ours and other people’s, that makes life so beautiful.

As I walked to Apple though, I thought how non big of a deal this is. We are green now when we used to be blue. There is absolutely no difference or change in anything else, just the colour of our text bubbles and it doesn’t mean that anything is wrong. We are communicating just fine now in green as we always did when we were blue. But something is different now and it’s up to us to choose how we handle this glitch for however long it decides to stay in our lives, staring at us every day. 

I kept thinking, maybe we’re not supposed to be blue anymore, we are being set apart just the two of us for some reason and that maybe this means something else? The Universe sending us a message (in green not blue obviously) and that, according to my last post about mystery, that, we should start paddling towards it, accept it, believe in it, and not search so hard to solve it when it’s not causing us harm or changing anything in our lives for the worse. Maybe this mystery is supposed to sit there with us and it will resolve when it’s supposed to and I shouldn’t be running around to Fido and Apple asking questions and searching to get back to blue. Except my curiosity gets peaked with technology and I love learning things about my phone, my kid, so, I still wanted to do a bit of investigation because it was, odd, that it is just us and with everyone else we are blue. The Fido guys were at a loss, and they know, A LOT. So, a trip to Apple was important for my brain. 

I am currently sitting in my hallway typing this in my Notes because I had this blog post in my head all day going from store to store and it was busting out through my ears and nose, so I’m sitting here on my rug with my jacket and boots still on typing away. When this happens, when stuff swirls in my mind I have to stop everything that I am doing, sit down, cross my legs, breathe and let it rip. I’m grateful I’m not holding a pen and a notebook right now and that my wonderful phone has this writing feature. There should be more writing features, for people who, like to write and type, a lot. I bet there are, I just haven’t discovered them yet. I should have asked the Apple guys, oh well, doesn’t matter really, the Notes app is great and works just fine. 

The consensus, after much prodding and three different geniuses thinking and fussing with both of our phones was, that I needed to make an appointment and come back in a day or two, they were not about to give up, and it was almost closing time. I scheduled a time to return in two days and for now, we remain green. Will we revert back to blue ever again? Who knows but they reassured me that this has happened before and that they are certain that in two days me and my Mom, will be back to blue. 

I had an inkling that this is what they would say and I was prepared for it and my Mom will be ok too, we are resilient the two of us. Just bring it on. But just like any glitch that throws your system slightly off kilter and remains a mystery, how you choose to understand it and allow it to affect you is what matters. Steve knew what he was doing, taking over the emotional health of the world. Nah. You’re always in charge of your own internal mess, chaos, calm and beauty, it would be nice though, if Apple dished out less glitches. I guess I could surrender my iPhone for an Android, but, I’m very loyal, and there’s glitches with anything, so I’ll stick with this kid, she’s been a blessing so far, glitches and all. 

Welcoming her glitches and loving them and learning from them, enhancing my mental attitude, maybe that’s what Steve had in mind. I do believe the Universe threw this glitch at us for a reason. The timing is comical. Here’s something else you sweet resilient souls, will you let it burn or let it dissolve? I’m ok with being green. I’ve always felt more green than blue anyway. I love green. Kermit the Frog would argue with me however, as he says, “It’s not easy being green.”

I’m coming to like them, these glitches. Forcing me to orient my thoughts and feelings and even a little bit faster too. And the more glitches that happen, the better.

Thanks Apple and thanks Steve! Keep the glitches coming, watch me love them, welcome them. I am fireproof. And so is my Mom and so are YOU. You can handle it all and more and the more that comes at you, glitches here and there, don’t lose sight of the bigger picture. Does. This. Actually. Matter? No. 

What mattered today and what will always matter is the great conversation and funny discussion I had at the Fido store with two very nice and amusing guys. We even gave each other a high five before I left the store. (Initiated by me of course, I thought hugging it out might be a bit much, but, I thought about it). 

What matters is the warm, kind, patient, honest, determined and friendly humans at Apple who just want to make your experience with your phone and thus your life, better.

I have shelter, food, running water, a bed to sleep in, clean air, sturdy healthy legs to get me from A to B, healthcare, my eyesight, safety, and love. I am grateful for these and never take them for granted.

What matters is that my Mom is here, I am here, and we can text each other any day, any time, from anywhere, whether we are blue or green, makes no lick of a difference. 

Happy Glitching! 

(Ok time to get off the floor)

The Price of Shoes

~ Emma ~ Leave a comment

Buying new shoes, especially ones that really fit, can change a lot of things. And when I say “fit” I don’t mean like, “Oh these are so much comfier than my other ones!” I mean, they fit on a level that change how you exist and think. Your muscles, bones, ligaments, energy, it’s just different, more aligned, springier, more youthful. A new pair of shoes doesn’t just add pop to your wardrobe, they can add years to your life. Enhancing the way you walk, the way your bones feel, how your muscles work. These shoes help to release tension you didn’t know you were carrying.

Shoes like this, you need to pay real money for. When you consistently buy cheapo shoes or the less expensive ones and you love them, and they do the job ok, but after a short time your body begins to ache, and the colour starts to fade faster, they start wearing out and they wear you out in the process. Until you step into a new pair of quality shoes, with proper support, and shoes that just know how to give you all that you’re supposed to have in order to walk this Earth in the best possible way, you sort of never really appreciate what this kind of purchase and investment can provide.

I have small feet, so I’m always shopping for Kids shoes, and it’s great because I love getting fun floral, pink patterned, sparkly shoes and kids shoes are great! Less expensive too. I think it’s sort of fun being able to wear kids shoes, but, they’re never what I really need out of a shoe. I’m settling and not making the investment on myself to go for the really good ones, the ones I know that I should be wearing, that are really meant for my feet, that will support me in all the ways I need in order to get the maximum out of every single step that I take.

When my old pair of shoes wear out and I just can’t suck any more wear out of them, I have a little bit of sadness. I think about all the places I went with them and the places they took me, the journey that those steps in those shoes created. And even though they’re just shoes, it’s the same kind of thing we feel I think with a favourite sweater, or a shirt or a piece of jewelry, or a hat. Comfort, memory, sameness. I think shoes are a lot different than putting on a favourite cozy hoodie though.

Shoes impact and influence your soul energy. The way we walk and present ourselves is so largely influenced by how our body, muscles and bones work and feel. A good pair of shoes can help to relieve so many physical ailments which can then directly impact our mental ones. A new pair of shoes, just like a new set of thoughts, can change our entire mental game. That’s why, stepping into a new pair of shoes can feel like, your life has just changed. “My hips feel less tight. I’m standing up straighter. My knees don’t ache as much now when I walk for long periods. My existence has improved”. Just from two pieces of footwear. You never really think about the impact that this has until you’ve been aching for a long time, feeling misaligned, choosing the wrong pair, after the wrong pair, body getting more and more tired, needing to work harder and harder to work optimally. And then Boom, one single step in a new pair of shoes and the life you were living before, is in the past. You’re like a new person. A different feeling, moving, breathing person.

Someone I love just got a new pair of shoes recently and this is what has inspired this post today. And I know there are people reading this right now who are thinking, “What’s on my feet?”. I never realized the importance of investing and paying more money for shoes until I did it. Took a leap. Saw and felt what life could be like in one of “those” pairs of shoes. And paying for a new pair like that, you also sort of know that they’re going to be with you for a long time. Even on the days where you wear your other shoes, and these new ones stay in the closet, they’re still there waiting for you to step right back into them and feel that difference. Feel the way life is different when you walk in them.

New shoes even bring you closer to where you’re supposed to go. Because your energy is different in these shoes, it’s more revved up, vitalized on a whole new level, fresh and buzzing, and with that energy you have much better direction. All because of shoes. A much better understanding of where you’re supposed to go, because you’ve got the right support. Your bones, muscles, mind, blood flow, aura, it’s all in a better place because of these shoes, and so naturally, these shoes just compliment your understanding of your existence better and how you’re supposed to be living, purely by giving you what you didn’t realize you needed to live better.

Things get clearer when you wear the right shoes. Clarity on how life is supposed to feel. It takes time to find that right pair though. And lately when I find the good ones that might be a bit pricier, I buy two of the same. Spend that money. Go big on this, keep investing in the exact same pair. Keep it consistent, and simple. Don’t look anywhere else, because these shoes know what you need and they’ll keep giving it and giving it and giving it. Having lots of different pairs of shoes that feel different on your feet and make you walk differently, feel differently, these misalignments add up. The tensions build, muscles get used to working inefficiently and things start to wear and break down.

I end up buying new shoes (but not the RIGHT ones) every year or six months. I walk A LOT. Walking is my life. I take so many steps and the shoes I’m in, I just know aren’t serving me in the ways that my body needs. So, that’s it. No more. I am frugal and don’t spend money on “things” very often. You can’t be frugal with shoes. These are not “things”. And you can’t be frugal with your heart either. Investing in that good pair of shoes, buying two or three of the same ones, is going to guarantee that you’re walking with the right stuff happening. Just like investing in a person. It’s risky at first because you don’t know how far this pair will be able to take you. If it’s the perfect pair, invest, invest, invest, buy nine pairs of the exact same one so you never have to take one step on this Earth without them on your feet. But how do you know if they are the perfect pair? Just try them on.

But like all things in life, shoes do wear out. But if you can afford it, financially and emotionally to keep making the investment and sticking with the same pair, the one that keeps you aligned, relaxed in your bones, joyful in your thoughts, fired up in your vibrations, then it’s worth spending that money and spending the emotions, creating a savings account JUST for these shoes, so you know when they get a little worn down, you’ve got the juice in the tank, saved up to get more of that same shoe in a fresher way.

That same pair can be with you forever. Sure, there’s lots of amazing feeling shoes out there, that are going to strike up good feelings all over your body. Comfort is found in many ways and even the less expensive pairs of shoes can give comfort, and having many different pairs of very expensive comfortable shoes can be nice too. But, in my opinion, there will always be that one pair. That one pair out of all the other expensive and supportive ones, that you’ll still want to choose because there’s just something different that when you wear them, you are the most authentic you, and you feel safest in this pair over all the others. You trust this pair. The others are worth the investment too. But this pair just fits, not physically with it just being the right size and shape, but, this pair fits because you’re a better person wearing these ones.

Settle for thrift store T-shirts. Dollar store socks and pants. But shoes, if you can and have the means, don’t mess around with this. What goes on your feet, the shoes that you decide to step into, directly influence your energy, thoughts and decisions. Find that amazing pair that you can’t live without. And never stop wearing them. Let them guide you to the places you’re supposed to go. Let these shoes into your life, they’re sitting on the shelf just waiting for you to come get them. And once you have them, throw out all the old shoes that are widening the cracks on your heart and your soul, they aren’t serving you. You deserve to float through life with happy feet.

Clearing away the shoes you’ve worn out, the ones that don’t give to you anymore in the ways that you’re supposed to receive for proper alignment, throwing out that pile of different shoes you’re holding onto because they’re still a bit comfy and you wore them for so long, here and there, and they are still pretty cute and they still “work”, and they’re convenient and easy, is only wearing you down. Level up and toss those suckers. Keep investing in the good pair. Over and over and over.

They say “eyes are the window to the soul”. With that in mind, I think that “shoes are a bridge to another life”. Trying them on, taking a few new steps, walking differently, you’ll be amazed at the bridges that start to emerge where they never were before. Helping you to overcome and walk above the dirty waters, getting over the influences, instead of staying under them. Deciding to wear these shoes is all within your power. Just the act of picking them up off the shelf, choosing this pair, will start the bridge construction process. Continuing to walk in them day after day, will get you closer to that really big bridge that you need to walk across that you have been avoiding. The one that has alligators living below it. You know these shoes can get you over that bridge. You’ve invested, you took that leap, they’re on your feet. Start walking and don’t look back.

This amazing pair of shoes, they aren’t another person, or a thing, or an event. This perfect pair of shoes, the ones that are meant for your feet that keep you walking in a straight line when you’re almost on the verge of diversion, this perfect pair of shoes that still stays clean when you’re swamp walking, this perfect pair of shoes that you spent all your savings on because of the value they bring, this perfect pair of shoes that know how to restore your physical, mental and spiritual self, this perfect pair of shoes…is you.

Happy Ambulation Everyone.